Ready for Change

Since I've been living at home with my parents, I've kind of felt like I'm in limbo, mainly because I'm in between educational independence and financial independence. I've got a good start with my education, but now is the time to start building my own independence, one that is financially separate from my parents. Don't get me wrong, I love that my parents are glad to help me out as I continue to build support for myself.

I thought that working for Aflac would help me in this way, and it certainly can. But this job isn't exactly what I expected to do as a career. And, unfortunately, this is a job that is meant to be a career, not just a job, because it requires a huge time and effort investment before you start seeing real returns. Even so, you then are building your client base to help you survive in the long run. The only problem is, since this isn't what I want to be doing long term, I don't see the true point of putting all this effort into this sort of job.

Ever since I learned of the possibility that my parents would be moving back to Indiana, I've sort of lost the motivation to put in a lot of effort into my job. Mainly because I believe that if my parents move away from Franklin, there really is nothing left here for me. Sure, I have a few good friends here, but I don't really see any of them that often. Also, my brother and I have been talking about living together for a while now, so we can be close siblings again.

I told myself that until my mom hears the final decision about the possible job she may have in Indiana, I would continue to put my full effort into Aflac, as if I was going to stay here for a while. But as this continues to drag on, and the decision really should have been made by now, I find it harder to find the motivation.

No, I don't really like sales. Sure, I haven't been doing it for a while, so how would I really know until I give it a better chance? I have a few things going on that could really turn up to be a great profit for me, to help me make up for the little wages I've been earning so far. But I've thought to myself, even if and when I do get compensated for it, I won't feel any different about the job. The truth is, I just don't like it. And I continually think about how this job is not for me and how much I dislike doing it.

For now, I've been pushing through with the job for the experience. But I'm getting to a point where I almost don't care anymore. If my mom does get the job, I know my next step will most likely be to move to Indiana, move in with my brother, and hopefully land a job there. If she doesn't, then do I just continue to do this job, even though I really don't like it? I know, I'm lucky to have some sort of job right now, and I am at least grateful for that. But I just don't think I will be able to keep doing it, and I would rather put my efforts into finding another job. At this point in my life, I don't think insurance is at all what I want to be doing.

I've been praying a lot about this lately, and prayers for an answer would be greatly appreciated. I'm tired of this limbo, and I'm really ready for a change.

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